Trouble at Work

The least productive people are usually the ones who are most in favor of holding meetings.

Thomas Sowell

I had an interesting discussion with a manager, who is high up in the company, when I was able to speak with him the other day. It was a day when I had my friend, who is working with me on my direct sales, come over to discuss some ideas of how we can provide value to others and make our sales business successful.

It was a really great day full of lunch, walking, ideas, and discussions. I was incredibly motivated!

Of course, this is not my 9-5 job. My 9-5 is with a bank and the day before I had just been chewed out by my boss, because she did not feel I was prepared for a meeting we have next week. Next week! She had me spend the entire day reading up on materials, so that I could be prepared for everything. The thing is, the material I was given, I already knew backwards and forwards, and anything else I was given was not relevant.

This seems small, but later that evening I went to a concert: Of Monsters and Men. I really enjoy this band and I was looking forward to seeing them. While I was there, about 3 songs in, I had a panic attack about the meeting next week. Next week! What am I missing? What have I not thought about? Why does she feel I am not prepared? This is not even a really interesting or useful meeting, she just does not want me to make her look bad, I suppose. These were the thoughts running through my head. Suddenly, instead of enjoying the show, I was stressed out about work. That is a breaking point for me.

The next day, my friend came over for lunch to talk ideas. It was great! It gave me hope that perhaps the 9-5 can end, but there is much work to be done. We ate, took a quick walk, and talked ideas before I went back to my “real job” at the bank. Then I had a call with the big manager. I am not even sure manager is the correct title. Maybe Director or something. He is also a lifelong friend from childhood.

I mentioned what was going on, how I should not be freaking out over a meaningless meeting next week and having it ruin my after work life. He surprised me a bit when he mentioned that he was going through the same thing. He had a family event that was a once in a lifetime event with the entire family and all he could think about was work. An entire week, where he was there in person, but his mind was elsewhere. He said it just did not feel right.

It just did not feel right. Such wise words, but how do you get out of it? How do you leave the 9-5 without exposing your family to financial risks? Those were the questions we were left with.

This is not to say we are not grateful for what we have, it is only the idea that perhaps there is something more that is out there and that it is OK to pursue it. Something that feels right.

It may be a long shot, but that is why I chose to take on direct sales on the side. A hope that perhaps in the future I can leave the rat race and have more time for the things that matter. The meeting next week will come and go and I won’t even remember it a year from now, but I will remember that the show was ruined because I could not stop thinking and stressing about the meaningless meeting. That certainly does not feel right.

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